I’ve been aiming for the stars but I don’t want it anymore.
I want to be free. Money isn’t happiness. Fame isn’t happiness. I want to live. I don’t want to be utterly consumed by something that causes me such stress and anxiety when pressure and payment is involved.
Photography is my happiness, but as a hobby. As something that I can be free through only when I am doing it for myself.
I used to think it was all or nothing - that photography was either going to be my career and life or be nothing at all. I thought if I didn’t pursue it, I would become boring. I don’t think that anymore.
I want a career in something serious and secure. I want to be respected for more than taking photos of beautiful people.
I won’t stop photographing. I swear to God, I won’t ever stop. But I’m no longer going to do it as a job. I’m going to do it for my love of it. When I want and where I want. No more paid jobs… just friends, sunshine, travel and me.